starting to feel homesick again.. fuck.. must.. fight.. it..
usually it kicks in on thursdays.. probably because i played badminton tonight and i got to reminsice my badminton nights in the Philippines..
sigh.. another restless night..
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
Sunday, January 7, 2007
today was exhausting but very fulfulling =) i drove 120 miles because i had to pick up my friend in Torrance (30 miles), go to the badminton place at El Monte (another 30 miles from Torrance), then go back the same route by the end of the day.
before leaving though we ate at ralph's house. his wife minie was there too and they were both very very nice =) thanks for the lunch and dinner!
the games were awesome. i really had a good work out today, and just now i finished doing my home exercises =) so everything went according to plan just the way i like it.
today has it downs as well. dad collapsed and he almost hit his head on the tv table. he's been feeling light headed since this morning probably because of his medications =(. good thing he wasn't hurt, but my mom told me she cried because she thought my dad hit his head hard. its tough to see your parents getting hurt because they've always been the ones you see who're always strong. times have changed, and it's pretty tough for me to adjust and realize that this is whats happening because since i'm the youngest, i'm used to being spoiled a lot. but like i've aforementioned many times, it's time to shine. one day at a time i adjust to the fact that now it's my time to take care of them, like how they took care of me. i know i won't be able to repay them for what they did for me in my lifetime, but i'll try to do what i can in theirs...
=')
before leaving though we ate at ralph's house. his wife minie was there too and they were both very very nice =) thanks for the lunch and dinner!
the games were awesome. i really had a good work out today, and just now i finished doing my home exercises =) so everything went according to plan just the way i like it.
today has it downs as well. dad collapsed and he almost hit his head on the tv table. he's been feeling light headed since this morning probably because of his medications =(. good thing he wasn't hurt, but my mom told me she cried because she thought my dad hit his head hard. its tough to see your parents getting hurt because they've always been the ones you see who're always strong. times have changed, and it's pretty tough for me to adjust and realize that this is whats happening because since i'm the youngest, i'm used to being spoiled a lot. but like i've aforementioned many times, it's time to shine. one day at a time i adjust to the fact that now it's my time to take care of them, like how they took care of me. i know i won't be able to repay them for what they did for me in my lifetime, but i'll try to do what i can in theirs...
=')
Saturday, January 6, 2007
dad's coming home..
after the worst three weeks of my life, finally my dad is coming home to us.. i'd like to take this oppurtunity to thank everyone who prayed for my dad..
but just last night i learned one devasting fact which changes everything again... a life changing fact... =(
but just last night i learned one devasting fact which changes everything again... a life changing fact... =(
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
Everything
my ALL TIME favorite song.
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
all that posting below for nothing. my boss just called and told me to hold off going to work till tomorrow. geez. i've lost a week's worth of income because of the holidays. that's the disadvantage of being a temp: since you're not an employee, you don't get paid holidays. you only get paid by the hour, meaning you don't have fixed salary, not to mention no benefits!
probably by next week i'll start applying for part time jobs to get stable income till i land that full time job. so for today, im going to have my car washed and assist my dad to the dialysis center. then later tonight im going to play badminton and when i get home i'll use the Ab Lounge my parents bought me for Christmas. ( part of my NYR, exercise! )
sheferd naman!
probably by next week i'll start applying for part time jobs to get stable income till i land that full time job. so for today, im going to have my car washed and assist my dad to the dialysis center. then later tonight im going to play badminton and when i get home i'll use the Ab Lounge my parents bought me for Christmas. ( part of my NYR, exercise! )
sheferd naman!
aahhh.. i still feel very sleepy this morning.. after a week of vacation, it's time to go to work again.. i still have the holiday hangover up until now, but i have to shake it off or else ima be late for work. first thing though, i have to take dad's coffee to him before i go to work. he said coffee over at the skilled nursing facility tastes like poison LOL. have a good one everyone!
Monday, January 1, 2007
NYR
this year ended with a bang. from leaving for the US last September to my dad's incident last December. but it's time to put those behind and what better way to start the year than by making new year resolutions which i won't follow LOL. but since i'm writing it here it'll remind me everytime i check this blog. so without further adieu, my new year's resolutions:
1) EXERCISE. time to lose gained weight from the holidays! it's also time for me to get my cardio up since heart disease is in our genes. playing badminton every tuesday and thursday and doing home work-out 5 times a week sounds pretty good. i'll also include having proper diet here. no more fatty foods ( good luck, lol )!
2) BE STRONG. homesickness has been my main problem ever since i arrived in the US and the only solution i can think of is talking to other people. but fact of the matter is, they won't always be there for me. so for this year, whenever i feel homesick, i'll just suck it up and be strong. i won't bother people with my problems because i know they have a lot of problems too, probably worse than mine. i'm the kind of guy who just wants to vent out emotions to someone but i have to change that. gah. changing attitude has never been easy but i'll do my best.
3) TIME TO SHINE. this line always puts me into persepective. last year i was living a laid back life. badminton every night, drinking every other night ( if not every night ), sleeping late, waking up late, and whatever else laid back things i used to do. but last September when i arrived here in the US, i knew my life was going to completely change, and it did. it's time for me to start waking up early to go to work. it's time to start helping my parents and taking care of them as well. it's time to start planning for my future and my career. it's time to start changing from a laid back life to a serious one.
it's time to shine..
happy new year everyone!
1) EXERCISE. time to lose gained weight from the holidays! it's also time for me to get my cardio up since heart disease is in our genes. playing badminton every tuesday and thursday and doing home work-out 5 times a week sounds pretty good. i'll also include having proper diet here. no more fatty foods ( good luck, lol )!
2) BE STRONG. homesickness has been my main problem ever since i arrived in the US and the only solution i can think of is talking to other people. but fact of the matter is, they won't always be there for me. so for this year, whenever i feel homesick, i'll just suck it up and be strong. i won't bother people with my problems because i know they have a lot of problems too, probably worse than mine. i'm the kind of guy who just wants to vent out emotions to someone but i have to change that. gah. changing attitude has never been easy but i'll do my best.
3) TIME TO SHINE. this line always puts me into persepective. last year i was living a laid back life. badminton every night, drinking every other night ( if not every night ), sleeping late, waking up late, and whatever else laid back things i used to do. but last September when i arrived here in the US, i knew my life was going to completely change, and it did. it's time for me to start waking up early to go to work. it's time to start helping my parents and taking care of them as well. it's time to start planning for my future and my career. it's time to start changing from a laid back life to a serious one.
it's time to shine..
happy new year everyone!
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